What’s it like to kiss someone?

I want to find out.

But the truth is, nobody would want to kiss me.

And I don’t want to kiss anyone, either.

Except for maybe…

I’m getting ahead of myself.

I don’t know if I want to.

Maybe I do.

But still, I don’t know.

I’ve learned the hard way

To never let yourself feel

The way I am right now.

But sadly enough

I just can’t help myself.

I don’t think I’ll kiss him.

Not today, or tomorrow.

But when Wednesday comes around…

No, I just can’t.

He’s right.

I’m weird.

He’s right how I can

Get up and sing in front of

Hundreds of people but not

Be able to kiss him on the cheek.

Should I do it?

I think I should.

It would help me a lot.

But I don’t know

Do I even like him?

He’s my best friend.

Seriously.

Do I want to ruin that?

Throw it all away

Just for a simple

Peck on the cheek?

Can I swear in front of you?

I can?

Thanks.

DAMNIT.

I don’t know

What I should do.

There’s butterflies

In the air

In my stomach

In my heart.

And that’s the reason why

I tend to have

Butterflies.