As you hold me close to you, I can feel your heart pounding in your chest.
I know something is wrong, even though you do your best
To hide it.
As you say goodbye to me, I can see tears glisten in your eyes.
You cannot hide these things from me, there is no disguise
I wouldn't see.
''Whats wrong?'' I ask, certain you can hear the pain in my voice.
''Nothing.'' You smile sweetly, and its clear you've made your choice
Not to tell me.
I go to my mothers house, and tell her that you came over again.
That it was just like the last time, how you looked in pain
and there's nothing I can do.
She walks over to me, sits down and holds my hand.
She asks me, ''Jackie, are you sure you saw him again?''
Like I'm crazy.
''Of course? Who else could it be?'' She looks at me and looks worried.
''Jackie, don't you remember?'' I stand up and act hurried.
She's crazy, I decide.
''Jackie, sit down. Todd is gone. He died two months ago''
I sit down, dumbstrook, remembering what happened. ''No!''
I scream.
''Jackie, this always happens. Every week on this day.
''You come to my home, sit down and talk to me, and do you know what you say?''
I shake my head.
''You tell me Todd looked sad when you saw him just before.''
I shake my head tearfully; I can't bear anymore.
Am I crazy?
Two months ago Todd jumped in the sea,
All he left was a note which read 'Sorry'
I am going crazy.
I get up and walk out. This is a sign, I decide.
''Where are you going?'' My mother asks, she looks about to cry.
''To see Todd.''
She just shakes her head, opens the door.
She thinks I'm crazy, the truth is much worse.
I'll see you, Todd.
I go to the cliff, look down at the sea.
Remembering all that was you and me.
And I write a letter.
'I couldn't live without Todd. I'm sorry.'
Soon, Todd. Soon, it will be you and me.
And I jump.