here Rika:

                    Zexions Diaries

20 months after Roxas joined

I had traveled outside to see what was going on,due to Xemnas,Saix,Axel and Marluxia's scents being out there. A few members also gathered outside. After Roxas faded,Axel went to his room with tears in his eyes. I then walked up beside the Superior after Marluxia faded "you know he's never going to forgive you for that"

"doesn't matter"

"does to him" I then went to the library to read.

Axel didn't come out of his room for long that night. Only for a bit of food then he returned to his room. Demyx was also upset that Roxas was gone,but he managed to move on by excessively  playing his Sitar

Day 1 after Roxas' death

Axel only came out today for a little food in the morning. I have no idea what he's doing in his room,I just know he hasn't left the castle. If anyone is wondering,I have the ability to smell people based on thier things and the presence of darkness in their hearts (or lack thereof).

I don't think Vexen has noticed how Axel's been acting. I'll see if this will straighten itself out before talking with the Superior.