Well, first let me start off by saying I like writing about realistic things. Like, things you may not know take place right outside your window. I've been having this story idea rummaging through my head for quite some time, and now I just can't take it anymore. It'll be a while until I write it (if I do at all) because I'm probably going to finish my other story "Pictures of You" first. But anyway, here's the prologue (and underneath I'll write a summary on what it's about).
I have thought about running away. It has been chasing around my mind every time blood would be stroking down my skin, or every time I’d be on the floor, just begging to be killed. But I couldn’t. My dad, he might be horrible to me, he might hurt me more than words can describe, but running away….leaving him and being completely abandoned, alone, searching when I just had the answer, would only be worse. So with every slap or punch I got, every cry and sob that secretly lingered its way out of mouth, I keep asking myself the same question. What else do I have? And the answer was clear, a naked eye could grab the sight of it from the other side of the horizon. I had nothing else. My dad was all I could hold on to, he was the only thing that made my existence known, he was the only thing that convinced me that I wasn’t imaginary, here in this cruel world for an unknown reason. And although it might hurt, although I might be crawling to end up nowhere, screaming to not be heard, the truth was there, right in front of me. I could not end up empty, I could not breathe in and hold all of my sanity until I was left suffocating. It just wasn’t an option. So I would take in each beating, and throwing it away in a delicate part of my heart, one that was barely beating.
I guess I’d rather have my heart mangled and tortured than not be there at all.
I guess I’d rather be holding an oppressed amount of agony than be left empty handed.
I guess I’d rather feel pain than be left feeling nothing.
This story is basically about a teenage girl who lives only with her father. He starts beating her, and her world is suddenly transformed into a living nightmare. She has bruises on her body, skips school, starts smoking, and completely loses herself. But the reason she won't leave her father is because she feels as if she has nothing else, that if she leaves him, she'll disappear. Little does she know, she already has. This story basically revolves around being crumbled down until your nothing left, and somehow, finding the strength to put yourself back together again.
PS: This is not a cheesy beating story. The dad does love his daughter, he is just messed up and does give her affection sometimes. It's not like he beats her every two seconds, or anything, he just is not right in the head and such.