okay now im going to bed! goodnight!

((im here...))

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(( It was my turn to post...I got an idea on how he can get to the forest...but i wanna know if you think its realisitc ... (( this is a true story)) This guy at my school last year, went into the woods, and did a overdose for suicide. (I ironically liked him, and his name was Eddie hehe :)  )  He lived. So it is possible to live from an overdose, and he just gained alittle bit of weight because when you do pot. You don't get hungry...Do you think we can do that? Or to ironic that he did it in the woods?))

(( I just read that paragraph, and it looks very confusing. Let me try to say this again. Would it be too ironic if he committed suicide in the forest, not wanting anyone to find him?

((it would be ironic but i think i could make it work. you just have to go to the heart of the forest if you want her to find you.))

Three hours of sitting in the same spot, and Eddie still didn't move. He didn't care, He threw up again once, but since he hasn't eaten anything nothing else came up. He found himself loosing to much energy, he had to lie down. But he forcefully kept himself up, wanting the pain. He felt as if it was what he deserved. Letting her leave to the cold, dangers out there, he deserved no comfort at all. So he forced  himself to sit up as long as he could. He would sit there until he died, he kept telling himself, but he knew sooner or later, he was going to give up and walk home.

Larka's dreams were filled with horrifying pictures of what she thouhgt to be eddie dying. she woke up screaming. "no! no, no , no no no." she cried "what have i done. i can't go back, but now, now he's dying. no!" she cried and for some reason she fell out of the tree. the tree was very tall and larka landed heavily on the ground. she didn't move. she just lay there crying in pain and agony. why had she left. why.

((i'll be back. i have to go for like 20 minuets.))

He started thinking about what would happen if he just left the way she did. What if he just fell of a cliff, and left this earth forever. Would anyone care? The only one he hoped would care would be Larka, but apparently he wasn't good enough. She left, she left with his heart that he gave her, and she didn't even know it. For all he knew, she could be dead right now. She was dead and gone, and he was just gone. But promised himself that he would be dead soon. So he could be like her, so maybe she would love him. What if she never even liked him that way? Is that why she left?Because he loved her, and she didn't love him? That wouldn't be a surprise...He went back to his first thought. Would anyone care if he died...? NO. That was his biggest pain. Noone cared. Noone cared about him, or what he did.He didn't even care about him, he didn't love himself. Noone told him they loved him, or even showed him it, not counting Larka. He shook his head, Life was stupid, especially if noone loves you. He remembered how he met Larka and how Cody was telling him to have the drugs...Maybe he could do it that way.  If noone loved him, and he didn't love himself, then he should die with torture.Everyone would enjoy that since they didn't love him. He knew the plan now, and ran to Cody's house as fast as he could.

(( cyyaa for now :) ))

((okay im back))

(( OO mmkay haha))

when the pain eased larka sat up.  she laid her head against the tree. tears ran down her cut and scratched face. the tears stung the scratches she had gotten running through the trees. why had she run away. she knew the answer. Eddie didn't love her and she loved him so she ran away. that was why she ran away. she couldn't stand it. she thought about going back but she couldn't move. so she sat and let the pain in her body continue to hurt. she didn't know what to do. maybe eddie would come looking for her. she shook her head. no he wouldn't do that. she knew he wouldn't no one cared about her except for her sister/kitten. "i'm so sorry" she sobbed.

((its fine. lolz))

larka sat with her head on her knees crying. "ginny, im so sorry, eddie, im sorry. im so sorry." she cried.

Eddie ran with the bag in his right hands, heart beating. His running wasn't very fast, because his energy was gone, but he didn't care, because these are his last hours. Everyone who didn't love him, will be loving this torture of his. He stopped for five seconds, vommited like he did last night. Drops of blood got on his shirt, but he ignored it. He kept running, when he got to the forest, he stopped to see how far it was. He wanted to get so far away that he would get lost to get back. He ran, hoping it was a couple miles so he could really get lost. When he got to the perfect spot, and sat down and took a deep breath, he looked at the bottles of drugs in his bag.  He was ready. Lets do this... He had a water bottle as well. He took a couple dozen pills into his hands, and swallowed them all down. At first it felt like nothing, but he knew it wasn't going to be like that for long. He looked at the pot in the bag. He didn't really know how to use it. (Don't call me sheltered or anything, but i have no idea how to either, so i am just going to have him not use it lol) So he just kept it in the bag. He kept getting more and more pills until he felt sick. When he felt something going wrong with his body, he got up and started running farther, he wanted to get to a place where noone would find him. He saw a small ditch, he could probably dig alittle farther and make himself alittle hole. A funeral for one. He ran to the ditch, and started digging. When he had the perfect size for him to squeeze through, he got in. The adreniline was getting to him now, he was scared but very excited. He knew this is what everyone wanted. He'll finally do something people want him to do, so they can stop bossing him around and treating him like nothing. He got a couple more pills out of the bottle and was about to swallow more down when something inside him was saying to stop. To just go to the hospital and get all these narcotics out of his system,and to just pray that Larka will come back, but before he had a choice, everything went black, he closed his eyes, happy. finally...