[[Alright that's fine^^]]

Kimi waved goodbye to him, her heart sinking a bit, a smile still on her face. Right when he shut the door she hurried to the closet and got out the vacuum, vacuuming the living room and wiping off all of the dust. Once she finished, she wiped her forhead with the back of her hand, cleaning was very time consuming. She sighed before cleaning the bathrooms and kitchen before doing the laundry. Once all of the clothes were loaded into the washing machine, she fixed her hair once again and then settled down onto the couch. Kimi didn't really feel like watching television, instead she stared at the ceiling. So much was on her mind; was marriage really supposed to be this way? She was pretty sure that not all husbands acted in this manner. Kimi let the thought die and sighed. "I'm lucky to have Richard, here with me...", she told herself. Although, she found part of herself protesting. This trully, was an internal conflict and Kimi had no idea of what to do about it. Except for just trying her best to stay out of Richard's way. This, was the best solution that she could come up with, and she planned to follow it.

[[Sorry. xDDD
Yesterday I was online here, but I was mostly on my email. <333 ]]

When Richard had asked me to go over while he was at work, I couldn't pass up the oppurtunity. It was possible that Kimi could be home. 
Richard has never known how much I'm taken by her. Everything about her always made me a little more crazy about her. But, Richard loved her too.
((I'm just going to make it where Lance doesn't know Richard an abuser. Like, he just looks at the relationship like it's the 'perfect marriage'.)) I couldn't get in the way of how Kimi loved him back. She'd never love me.
Richard has always been the one with the charm, good looks, and success right at the palm of his hand without him trying.
I, on the other hand, am still not married or dating. I have horrible vision - always having to wear glasses - and I doubt women look at me the way they look at Richard. I'm the klutzy one with the nerdy smartness that made anyone want to leave the room once I explained how much bacteria they had on their hands no matter how much they washed them.
I checked myself in my rear view mirror in my old car, hoping Kimi would like how my hair was shorter then before since I had a hair cut before I came, and got out of my car. Anxiously I started for the Smades's home, hoping Kimi was there. I knocked on the door once I came to the porch, and then pushed my glasses up from the middle of my nose. I always hated that about glasses.

[[Bump <3]

[[Sorry, I was busy yesterday lol]]

Kimi looked over at the front door when she heard knocking and blinked. That must be Lancelot... She got up and fixed her shirt before strolling over to the door and answering it. The first thing she noticed was that something was very different about him. "Hey, Lancelot. Got a new haircut?" she asked, feeling a little better now that her troubling thoughts were gone. Kimi tried her best to give him a bright smile, one that would hide her confusion and frustration. And lately, she had mastered this technique, no one could tell when she was sad anymore. Which, in her case, was a good thing...right? She opened the door wider and invited him in, feeling relieved that she had decided to clean the house before he arrived. If he had seen the house in its earlier condition, Kimi would have been very embarassed. "How have you been? It's been awhile" she added as she sat down at the kitchen table.

[Homg.
I don't want Lance to be a sue.
But, would you not like it if he could tell how she was faking the smile?
Like, since he loves her, he just knows...
If you purposely said that so Lance couldn't tell that Kimi was upset, that's fine. I could say stuff like 'Great. She's really happy with Richard.' You know? xDDD ]]

[[YES!]]

She noticed my hair cut...
Was my first thought when I saw her open the door. The next was that, she looked as gorgeous as ever; making my heart skip beats.
I grinned and said,
"Actually yes. Thank you for noticing."
I don't think she realized how much she made my day. My year. Maybe even my life.
Of course, that is, until I saw that smile on her face. I've memorized every angle of Kimi's smile. The way she had a dimple on both sides of her cheeks; the way her eyes would crinkle up just a bit.
There wasn't anything like that in her smile. It was mostly deffinately fake.
Was something wrong?
I all of a sudden felt very worried. I walked through the threshold and turned back to her.
"I've been fine. And you're right. It's been a while."
Way too long, Kimi. Way to long.
Wanting to put the subject of our conversation back on her - on what was bothering her - I said,
"What about you? How are you?"

[[Bump <3 ]]

[[Lol, awesome post by the way ;3 i love you :D]]

Kimi blinked. She was smiling right? What would bring him to ask such a question? Oh God, he can see past my fake smile... She sighed and looked at him, with an unreadable ex
pression. "Life can be difficult sometimes.. but I'll get through it", she promised, not wanting to say anything that would get Richard in trouble. "Ah yes, the new look suits you" she added after. "Do you want anything to drink?" she asked, getting up from her seat and entering the kitchen. Kimi didn't have much to say, especially since he had asked how she was doing. No one had really looked past her smile to ask that, and it just made her feel a little better. At least someone cares...

[[bump^^]]

[[I'm sorry,Olio! </3]]

My heart ached for Kimi when she responded. I knew something was wrong, but part of me was hoping that I was wrong. That she was just fine; maybe even happy.
But what she said just portrayed that something was more wrong then I thought.
"You know..."
I started, crossing my arms and walking towards her.
"I'm not going to lie. I'm very smart. But, I'm not very smart because I was born with it. I've been reading information books for a long time now; and you know what was my favorite thing to read about? Human behavior. Pyshocology. You changed the subject, which means you're most likely uncomfortable with the subject at hand. You put on a fake smile because you are feeling something that you don't want anyone to know about. You're most likely hiding something and afraid to say anything about it. No matter how much you want to spill the beans, there is something - or someone - in the way. Is that right?"
I was in completely horror with myself after saying this. I always did this. Talking before thinking. You'd think a smart guy would know when to shut up.
"I'm... I'm so sorry, Kimi."
I said, running a hand through my hair - which she noticed. Thinking that would never get old.
"This is probably why I don't talk to many. I'm... Sorry."
I cleared my throat, feeling uncomfortable as well. I pulled my glassed up my nose again - they kept sliding down - and stared at her in the eyes.
"Sorry."

[[ It's okay Charmie-Kinz^^ You posted, so I'm happy :D ]]

Kimi had froze, not wanting to look up at him as he stated the full and total truth about how she felt. When he had finished she just looked up slowly, looking into his eyes. She felt utterly useless, there was no lie or excuse that she could come up with this time.. and she didn't know what to say. "Lance... it's not.. your fault" she finally said, the words coming out slowly, it took an effort. Kimi took a deep breath. How is it, that Lance would be the one to point out how fake she had been acting, when everyone else had just smiled right back and shrugged it off? "You're completely.... right." She lowered her gaze again and then she got all emotional, a tear sliding down her face. "I just don't know what to do anymore" she said before sitting down at the kitchen table, burrying her head in her hands.

[[Oh yeah, I love you too <3333333333333333 ]]

The second I saw her start to break down, I immediately came over to her. I kneeled down next to her, one hand comfortingly rubbing her back.
"Kimi..."
I said,  not being able to control myself as that hand on her back wrapped around her waist to bring her in a sideways small hug.
"Kimi, you can tell me what's wrong. I'm... I'll help you."
If I didn't ask this next horrible question, she'd find it suspicious why I was so comforting. I didn't need her knowing how much I loved her, and her telling Richard about it. Everything would be ruined.
"Have you told Richard about this?"
I asked, hating every word. I'd rather her tell me. Confine in me about everything she felt. Not Richard. That was a selfish way to think but I couldn't help it.

[[Omgah, yaaaay <333XFOREVER :DD]]

Kimi continued crying, wipping away the tears as he asked that question.

"Have you told Richard about this?"

She sighed and looked at him. "We've talked about it... Really, I'm making a huge fuss out of nothing" she told him, not being able to stop the tears that continued to fall down her cheeks. This was the moment she had always wanted, to at least tell SOMEONE about her pain.. the cause of her grief. Yet she knew that she couldn't tell Lance, he was Richard's brother! She still loved Richard as well, and she didn't want to start any problems. "I'm sorry, Lance.. It really isn't all that important" Kimi was so frustrated with herself, all the tears would prove that she was lying, and she knew Lance would insist. I've done it now....

I couldn't help but reach up my hand and cup her cheek, using my thumb to wipe the tears from her face.
"If it's making you cry, I believe it is something important."
I said softly, dieing to do so many things to her. I gulped, knowing I should take my hands off of her now. But, I couldn't.
And, I should have. I really should have.
"Lance?"
I heard Richard's voice and quickly turned my head to him as I let go of Kimi.
"Uh... H-hey Richard."
I said, hoping he didn't think much about the intimate moment between me and Kimi.
"Something wrong?"
Richard asked worriedly as he looked down at Kimi.
((He's faking. Just so you know for your charactar. I'm saying this in Lance's point of view and he doesn't realize how Richard is and blah blah blah, you get it xDD]] He quickly came to Kimi's side, putting the hair out of her face.
"Are you alright, honey?"
I inwardly smiled, glad that Richard didn't think much of me touching her the way I had.

[[I LOVE YOU MOREEEEE]]