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1:02am Jan 22 2012
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When Calamity's words hit Claire, she didn't want to listen to them. She knew what he was saying was right, but she didn't want to believe it and she deffinatly didn't want to listen to it. "Severin and I had a weird relationship, Calamity. I don't really think anyone quite understands it, and if you asked me to explain it, I wouldn't be able to. I couldn't tell you how he feels about me, but I love him, a lot. That's the only way I know how to show it; kisses, hugs, just love, whatever. And it's not easy to just stop showing him I love him.
"Maybe it is a bit much to break down because he's leaving, but he's all I have. He's not only a boyfriend, he's honestly all I have. I don't care about school, I don't care about my parents, and I don't care about myself. Because having him around is what makes me happy. Maybe it doesn't make sense to you, but it does to me. I know it's not good for either of us, but I just can't detach myself from him that easily. And as hard as I try not to hang on him, I think we both know when he comes back, I'l just be the same exact way."
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6:06pm Feb 17 2012
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"Claire, this is hard for you to hear. But... My brother needs you to be independent. It's not just in his best interest, but in yours if you want him to be a better...a better boyfriend." Calamity scowled. If he knew his brother, then he knew that if no one paid attention, he'd throw a fit. But, if he was going to throw a fit, that was fine. He just needed his brother to learn how to be a civilized person.
Calamity continued, slowly saying, "So, what you need to do...is learn...that you can be someone without him. Get a job, go to college or something. If he sees that you can do it, he'll realize that he needs to, too."
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9:34pm Apr 24 2012
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"I can't help him be independent when I'm so goddamn dependent on him myself." Claire retorted, taking a deep breath. "I'm sorry. This isn't easy for me. My emotions... I lose him. He leaves. He comes back..? I wake up, and you've taken him back to wherever he was. After changing so much since he's left, I'm supposed to not want to be with him as much as I can? It's not easy. And these mood swings are not helping me."
Claire buried her face in her hands. "I need time. So much time, I was over it. Why did he come back? Why couldn't he wait it out? Why does people think false hope is so damn funny!? It's not, it's really not. I'm sick of it. Maybe I'm better off alone. I can't take care of myself either way." |
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7:53pm May 7 2012
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Calamity swallowed his words. He knew better than to pass things off as "teenage drama," even though that was what it really was. It was teenage drama, and such a thing was not to be ignored. It was something to be dealt with and discussed, and then resolved. He hadn't figured this out on his own, however. Of course, he hadn't -- he didn't have kids, so what did he know?
Well, he knew that Claire needed support. If Severin wasn't going to take any support, then Calamity could reach him the next best way: through his girlfriend. No matter how cold Severin acted towards his girlfriend, he loved her, and this was something Calamity had realized on his own. If he helped Claire become a more stable person, perhaps this stability could rub off on her boyfriend.
"Claire..." Calamity finally said, letting out a deep sigh. It felt like he had just deflated himself. "He came back because he felt he needed to, don't you think? He wanted to be there for you, but really, he was doing it because he needed a boost. A boost...to keep him strong." He felt as though he were bull*censored*ting everything he was saying, but he had to say something. Anything to help Claire. "Look, love is obviously a crazy thing. And I realize you do love him, but I'd say it's not a very heathy, mature love."
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4:24am Jul 30 2012 (last edited on 3:05am Aug 10 2012)
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This whole situation was the most emotionally draining and irritating thing Clare had ever been through.
"You don't get it," she cried out. "I know everything you're saying is true. I do. I get it. I've known it for a while and I try so hard. I've given up everything normal in my life for that boy. Our relationship is just so upsetingly abnormal that I can't balance my life out. I do, I love him more than anything. I had good grades. I was in a sport. I was good at it. I had a good relationship with my mom.
"I loved him so much I gave it all up. My mom has no choice but to keep me here but everything else? I can't go back to how I was before. I have no fallback. Maybe this is what I need. A good kick in the ass to get my life back together.
"But I'm scared." Claire's voice caught in her throat as she got choked up. "I'm scared I'll be something he doesn't want. I'm scared I'll love myself and my life and in the end, I'll go back to what I am now. I'm scared that being independent will change me. I'm scared, Calamity. I don't want to give up. I hate what my life is. The only things I love is you and your brother. It's like drugs. No matter how much you tell yourself you're good without them, if you're offered them, you won't say no. His drugs to him is what he is to me. You see what it did to him. I don't want to be that."
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3:31am Aug 10 2012 (last edited on 3:31am Aug 10 2012)
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Children. They thought they couldn't survive without their one true love, without the only thing that made them happy. Well, they could. They just had to persevere. It was difficult, sure, and perseverance was something Calamity himself had lacked as a teenager. Well, all teenagers did this. The world was always coming to an end for them, and it was annoying. No wonder parents got so fed up with their children. In the end, Calamity had gotten fed up with himself, and that was how he'd ended up in a better place. No more cutting, no more screwing around. He'd stopped his bull*censored* and tried to be a better person. Not just for himself, but for his younger siblings. Unfortunately, he hadn't rubbed off much on either of them.
Severin had this gorgeous girl who loved him to death, and he didn't seem to care much. Not on the surface, at least. It was plainly obvious to Calamity just how much he loved Claire, and how he'd attempt anything for her. If only he could get Claire to understand... Actually, he himself didn't understand why this had to be so difficult. She'd been a good girl once before, she could do it again.
"Don't be stupid," Calamity snapped suddenly. His eyes widened. Whoa, he did not expect to say that. At that, he hadn't expected to be so...well, for lack of a better word, he didn't think he'd sound so mean. "I mean... Don't be scared, Claire. You're being irrational. Severin started dating you when you were all that, that girl who got good grades and did sports and got along well with her mother. He loved you then, but for some reason, you changed. And even then, he still loved you. Claire, he'd love you no matter what. And, if you really, truly love him, you'll go back to being a goody-goody.
"He gave in to you because you were more like what he wanted to be. You were a perfect example of a teenager, and that was exactly what he wanted. Everything he loved in you was everything he hoped for in himself. Trust me, I know my brother. So, when I say that you need to learn how to be independent, it's not just for you or for him. It's for the both of you. Don't worry, Claire. I'll be there for you. And, you know, I'm as close as you're going to get to having Severin back for now, so...try me. I'll be your rock."
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4:25am Oct 18 2012
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There's no point in fighting a losing battle. At some point, you just know to give up, that there's no point in going any further, that you'd lost. Okay, maybe a little exchange of words with Calamity wasn't an extravagant battle of sorts, but Claire knew she was wrong. She was wrong, and Calamity was right, and she couldn't change that.
"Okay." she said, simply. Maybe he expected more from her, surely he did, because she was sure more would come to mind. Nothing, just 'okay.' "Okay, Calamity. You're right, okay?"
Lies snowball. You start with a baby lie snowball, and it slowly collides with all these little lie snowflakes and before you know it, you've got this big mess of a lie snowball. And if you tell yourself a lie enough, even you'll start to believe it. And that's just too much snow for one person. For Claire, at least. Thinking that the relationship she has with Severin is okay? That it's normal? Is not just a lie, it's absurd.
"Thank you, for being here. I'm sorry. You shouldn't be in this mess. It's my mess. His mess. Our mess. And I'm kind of glad you're in it in a way... Silly, I know. But you're like a big brother to me. Like a, uh. What are they called? Ah, guardian angel. You're that!" she smiled and him, and reached out to cup his chin in her hands for a split second before her hands dropped to her lap.
There was so much wrong with this girl.
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