EEEWWWWW KNUX!!!!!!!! HEZ OLD AND DISGUSTING!!!

And Murgy, It was a mean opinion.

Tristan is so cute, but there's so much competition, and I can't even look him in the eye without bursting out singing songs from the Moulan Rouge. HE's a dork, but it's so adorable. Besides, he's no idea I exist. DX I can't even look at him, and I'm affraid to be asked out by ANYBODY because everytime I do, it turns out being a joke. I know I'm not the prettiest girl or some cheerleader, but, why me? I've never liked somebody like this before. Last time I tried talking to him, I ran away singing,

"Never knew I could feel like this:
Like I've never seen the sky before.
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Everyday I love you more than this.
Listen to my heart,
Can you hear it sings?
Telling me to give you everything?
Seasons may change, winter to spring,
But I love you until the end of time...."

Moulan Rouge.

Anyway, we have one cl*censored* together and we're two seats away. I end up humming that tune and I can't focus. I totaly zone out when the teacher's talking and I really have to consentrate in the eisiest cl*censored* there ever was. Sombody, please, either give me some killer advise or shoot me.

No kidding. It's just gotten worse. Our sceduals changed just a bit for the freshies, so everybody got a little mixed up. Turns out that now Tristan and some of my best friends have every other lunch together. As Agana, one of my best friends, is in the lunch line she notices that he's sitting alone, so she draggs everybody else over there and start talking to him. She starts to ask him if he knows who I am, describing the odvious. HE had no idea who I was until she mentioned my TNBC jacket I've been wearing alot scince my birthday. Apperently, he proclaimed that he loves the movie too.

Long story short, Agana asked him if he would go out with me. He declined only because he said that he felt like he didn't knwo me. So, Monday we have that cl*censored* together. I think I'll wear my different jacket so he won't just, like, randomly talk to me and ask me questions while I get to play the ever akward dumb girl.

All my friends think that's he's a great guy, but now that it's out, they're trying to suport us as a couple even though he barely knows my name. I feel horrable. I've NEVER even kissed a guy or been on a date before. I feel stupid as well as sick to my stomach. I mean, he's adorable, but my mother would flip, and my father, too for that matter, if they knew I had a crush on a guy. I feel so presured. It's like everybody's already voting us for cutest couple or something and I barly know him, either. Personaly, I think that's an excuse so that he eithier A. doesn't want to ask me out or B. hates my guts.

On top of that, I absolutely hate one of my other friend's boyfriend and I serriously worry about her. Her mother forced her to break up with this guy she really liked, and he said some awfly nasty things to her even I wouldn't say to anybody, no matter how much I hated them. Now they're adting again and I completely disaprove. The worst part is that he's a year older than we are and wants to "further thier relationship."

Meanwhile, anoter friend of mine just broke up with a boy. HE dumped her on the night of the dance for some other girl. This is horrid, as that this guy and TRistan seem to hang out quite a bit.

GAH! I'm so confused, I've no idea what to do! I know I'm over using this thread, but I've got no place else to let it out and get some advise without feeling terrable about ratting all my secrets on my friends. You've no idea how releasing this thread is.

I'm a cancer and ja and I luff it lol!!!

Well those are just excuses. He certainly did NOT lose his phone and if hez spending more time with YOUR friends then hez probably cheating on u and u have a backstabber friend! So not OK! Dump him! Dump him hard and good! Dump him now! There are so many other fish in the sea.

Oh and Knux. How come I'm kinda like that?