I just realized that I'm anti-social and scared of people because I'm afraid they're going to insult me and point out every flaw I have, just like my mom always does.

Feel free to post any of your realizations, whether it be serious or funny. :D 

It could be anything that you realized recently, or earlier before. 

I realize I am over-obsessed with things that could never be, like "what-if's" and "why-not's". Probably unhealthy, but I can't break the habit. I am also a hopeless romantic who is over-swayed by emotions, and kind of desperate for attention. I am wrong in the worst ways, and when I am right, I over-indulge in it. No matter how much I get hit in the face with it, I can't face death and realize it happens to everyone. I seem to believe that with age, I build an immunity to pain. I am over-defensive, and can dish it out, but can't take it in. I am a horrible sinner, prone to temptations and unshakable desires. I don't like some people because they are too similar to me. I tend to misshear things as I want to hear them.

I hope others draw comfort from my fifty-million faults.

That i'll have to grow up!

*gasp*

I guess I recently realised that I sometimes pair up places and memories with each other at random. Even if they're completely unrelated, or if the memory never happened at all.

Like. I remember playing a game that involved golden monkeys on this site called Orisinal Games at some point, probably a while back since I haven't visited that site in ages. And it ends up paired up with a memory of riding on a particular spot of a particular road that's not far from my house - or from the house I lived in as a little kid.

And for some reason I a-ssociate wolf roleplays with what must have been a dream I had once, where I come out of the bathroom next to my dad's office in his car shop, walk around a random baby bed, and head out the door into bright sunlight.

It's.. odd, I guess. x3

And yes, I realise this isn't as serious as most of you guys'. It's just the only recent thing I can think of. xD

I have realized my sister is the whole world to me and I need to give in when she won't. Its really hard for me to do when she is so arrogant and smart to my parents.

I have also realized that I have a lot of crushes. DX I think I have like.....9 now. I used to have 7. D8 And I can't seem to get the nerves to talk to them.

I have also noticed how unsocial I was. I changed it a little, but I don't want to get in trouble for talking, so that usually silences me in cl*censored*.

Jenny, I have the exact same issues with my mother.

Exact.

Nice to know that someone else is going through family-relationship hell. 

I need to grow up, but i can't, It's hard ok? T-T

I realised that I REALLY suck at spelling

I also realised that i can be good if i stopped and put a little effort into things(expecally English)... >.>

 I kinda find it hard to understand why peopel think drawing is bad/hard/not fun....Cus I LOVE drawing!

Haha, I guess I'm "happy" that someone else is suffering the same family relationship as me. xD; It is definitely re*censored*uring to know that I'm not the only one.

Cherry, I think the reason people think drawing is hard/difficult is because they don't have the artistic ability as others, which will drive some to think that drawing is bad and not fun anymore because they sort of doubt their own abilities, plus they don't really have the motivation.

I realized that it is nearly impossible for me to change my habits and I don't think I ever will.  D:

Example:  I decide to eat healthy.  I count calories for one day, maybe two, and then I just drop it.

Another Example:  I try to study for once in my life.  I study for a while and then drop it.  Idk, because I've been studying a little bit, but not much at all.  I got a 73 on an Algebra quiz D:

Also, I eat too much.

Today's meals:  2 pancakes with blueberry syrup, corned beef sammich, water, s'more, lollipop, cake, chips, 2 small truffles, 2 vegetarian chimichangas, more cake, 2 Diet cokes.

DX

Also, I have a hopeful realization.

If I lost a LOT of weight, I could probably be really pretty......

I'm almost 13 and I weigh like 165.  Literally.  It's mostly my stature, I'm kinda tall and kinda muscular.  Mostly, I'm chubby though.  XD  Like, not EXTREMELY, but it's still noticeable.....

I think I'd look good if I lost 40 pounds.

Bad side is, I'm going to mexico for a week over the summer, to a resort with 4 pools on the beach.  I've finally gotten up enough self confidence that I THINK I might be able to wear a bikini........ Not a really revealing one, obvously, but a bikini.  (I haven't worn a bikini since I was 5) I have stretchmarks on my sides, and they're really noticeable.  once my sister saw them and got all grossed out. :'(

Not gonna dream too much, though........ ):

*Useless Rant Over*

Thanks for reading, if someone bothered..............

Thanks, Jenny :)

I at least have to try.

I hope your family problems fix themselves :(

You're welcome. I know you can do it. :D

Problems don't always fix themselves, but here's to hoping nevertheless.